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(no subject) [Jul. 2nd, 2007|02:03 am]
Everyone's disappointed in me right now.

And I can't say I blame them.
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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...hehehe :D
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We Want Revolution. [Apr. 23rd, 2007|09:00 pm]
[music |"Call the Ships to Port"- Covenant]

Things may be looking up for me on the school front. My grades have been improving, I have mostly A's and B's now, with the exception of the D in bio, which I hope to change soon. It's funny what a little bit of actual effort can do to your grades. Sure, my social life isn't as glamorous as it was a few months ago, but my parents are pleased, and I have a shot at a better future.

I'm feeling a bit...pressured...at the moment. Seems like I've been trying to balance too many things at once, and I now realize I have bitten off more than I can chew. What with school, chores, homework, martial arts, the band, money...I simply don't have time to take a breather anymore, and I think it may be negatively affecting me. The band is my biggest concern at the moment. I find myself running out of time when it comes to practicing and preparing, and it seems that the less practice time I have, the more abundant and challenging my material becomes. This all becomes too overwhelming, especially at my current skill level. I realize I have expectations to hold, but I cannot meet them, no matter how hard I try. There is a limit, and I have reached it. And to be honest, the band is not the most important thing in my life, and in my humble opinion, it shouldn't be. Since elementary school, this is the first time I have ever done this well in an academic setting, and at this point I cannot afford to lose it. Sorry if you guys feel offended, short-changed, or that I am not trying hard enough. I am not blessed with abundant free time at the moment.
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I threw my pride out the window. [Apr. 13th, 2007|02:28 am]
[music |"Testure"-Skinny Puppy]

I started playing...it...again.
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I FOUND HIM [Mar. 18th, 2007|12:45 am]
[music |(If you say Arcturus one more time I will shoot you)]

Waldo. And not just any Waldo, oh dear god no. I found the Waldo at the end of "The Great Waldo Search." The one with a thousand different Waldos in it. You're supposed to find the Waldo missing a shoe. The very same page that sent me into a frenzy as a child, and caused me to throw the book out of the window, all because I spent hours looking for him, but to no avail. And I found him, no more than 10 minutes ago. Bitch, how's that for closure?
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(no subject) [Mar. 15th, 2007|09:03 pm]
[music |"Collapse Generation"- Arcturus (surprise, surprise...)]

Been (playing the keyboard) and confused for so long it ain't truuuuuueeee........I can have my random Zeppelin moments too. Learned a few cool tricky things. Hopefully I can get really good at them by tonight, because if I can begin using them, they'll REALLY liven up my playing! I'm very relieved, because I've been looking for a new direction to take my improv in. I am satisfied again, for now.

Writing WASL is finished now, thank god. I cannot believe it...I wrote my heart out with this prompt, and afterwards Megan said she heard it was the "fake one." Why? It was the best out of the 3 by far! On the bright side, we get our Wednesdays back, bitch!

I'm getting sick again. My throat hurts so bad that it is literally unbearable. I wish I could not go tomorrow, but I have plans over the weekend. If I miss school tomorrow, those plans are no more.

I am not having a party, and my reasons behind this are pretty obvious. I would like to see everyone, however. Talk to me about that!
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(no subject) [Mar. 13th, 2007|07:07 pm]
[music |"Moonshine Delirium"- Arcturus]

Tolo is on my birthday, people...and I seem to be the only one who thinks it sucks fuck.
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New icon!!! [Mar. 7th, 2007|12:30 am]
[music |"Kinetic"- Arcturus (Best band ever!)]

Oh yes, you know it's true!!!!

And I'm in a much better mood now :]]]]]]]
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(no subject) [Mar. 6th, 2007|04:22 pm]
I really do not understand. I have tried my hardest to stay out of this matter entirely, for my benefit and the benefit of others. But now, as much as I am going to regret this, something has been brought to my attention that cannot be ignored.

We have been friends as long as I have known you. For all I know, I have been genuinely kind to you and have offered my support, and you have done exactly the same. As such, I'm sure you can imagine my surprise to hear you have been talking about me in such a wantonly hateful and degrading manner. I cannot even begin to understand what I could have done to trigger this.

I could take the easy way out by assuming the worst and treating you as an enemy, but to be honest, that is not what I want. And I hope that is not what you want, either. We have been friends for over 2 years now. It couldn't possibly end like this, because I do not hate you, or wish any harm upon you. But these recent events have upset me too much, and I cannot simply ignore this matter.

So tell me, what have I ever done to you to deserve this kind of treatment? This is not a rhetorical question. I hope I can get an answer from you. The way I see it, until I can get a goddamn explanation at the very least, I have no business talking with you.
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(no subject) [Feb. 11th, 2007|11:09 am]
[mood |mischievouscondescending]
[music |"Stargazers"-Nightwish]

Stupid buttheads at Roland tech support, telling me I can't alter the velocity on my keyboard...I just found out how to do it! They st00pid. I'm buying Korgs from now on >:]
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